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Figured i would post my latest drafts of my poems on here, thought someone out there might be interested, i hope you find some wisdom in my HUMBLE words.

To be a halcyon*
To fight, to dance, to float…
To run, to leap,… to fly…
To live,
To be as a Halcyon,
Floating,
Flying,
Leaping!,
Over the oceans of causality…
At peace.

To be at peace is to find wa,
To find inner peace,
Inner peace is found through acceptance,
Acceptance of reality,
Of the reality of chaos,
To find calm,
In the chaos of reality,
And by finding calm,
To create calm,
Catalytic,
As a halcyon,
At peace.

To fight, to dance, to float…
To run, to leap,… to fly,
To live, to float,…
To accept
Lyron Winderbaum

*halcyon: A mythical bird that, according to ledgend, calms the stormy seas with the flap of its wings, and nests on a nest floating over the oceans.



Strength

Strength for the body is drawn from the mind.
Strength for the mind is drawn from the spirit.
Strength for the spirit...
Is drawn from you.

Lyron Winderbaum



Darkness

Darkness,
In its philosophical state,
Just as light,
Can be simply unnulled,
As a turned polarised pane,
Or a division of a common factor,
Once it is seen by knowledge,
It ceases to exist.

Now there is no Light or dark,
So then how is it that the one thing I am sure of,
Is that my eyes are finally open?
Lyron Winderbaum



The Muse,
The Tool-maker

Accused, I have been, of a muse, being.
But no muse, am I,
To be thought of as a tool-maker, I prefer,
Of thoughts, a carpenter,
Of minds, a smith,
Tools, I make, not inspiration,
Not by intention, at least,
With inspiration comes expectance,’
Expectance of more inspiration,
And that responsibility, do I deny,

But a weak tool-maker, am I,
For such responsibility’ too weak’ To be humble is all I wish,
Yet Godly responsibilities, thrust upon me have been,
Too weak?
Perhaps,
But choice is a misconception,
And there I go again.

Lyron Winderbaum

Well, i have decided that i dont like live journal, the set-out and design is just to hard to master, i mean sure i could, but i cant be bothered, and i like bebo, so i am switching to that, if anyone wants to read my blogs etc. from now on just go on there eh? or just comment, and ill invite to you bebo, np.

Well, i thought it was about time to update my lj again, lol... well, yesterday i finally got to see sophie, (for 5 hours, hehe, 3 of which was... anyway...) ;) so yeah, we went to see a movie, but then decided there where no good movies on, and proceeded to wander around mt barker, disappearing for some 3 hours, and then wandering the mall, where we saw a statistically (you should think) impossible number of people we knew, lol, most of which commented to me "so THIS is the sophie eh?" lol, so is' all good. Then we headed back to the farm, where i showed her around, introduced her to my parentals, then her parentals come over after to pick her up so i kidnapped them for watermelon and tea and what-not, so i got to know her parents, my parents got to know her, and her parents got to know me, all of which went off without a snag, as per usual (yes yes, i am amazing arent i?) lol, so yeah... that relationship couldnt be working better.

Yay... math test tomoz (i know, i remembered??!!!) wtf is going on??!! lol, well yeah, im bored of this already, cyaz all.

Cous cous and mayonaise... oh yeah! lol... i only weight 60kg... freaky, i need to weight 70 or i wil freak out and think i am anorextic (lol) hehe, so yeah, i think i am understanding krista's whole thing with the hyper-thyroid, lol.

well... i gained weight....and then lost it all at womad (understandable i suppose, it WAS womad, lol) so now back to trying to gain extra weight again... which i think will be tough considering i am gonna start riding down to mt barker and back about every second weekend, lol. ahh well...

Huh.. well... i lost my wallet on friday night... but hey... eating cous cous and mayonaise is so much more interesting than that, yeah, i know, i only realised what i was doing then when i was trying to think of something to say... yikes... meh, i think its the pure carbohydrates i need, cos i have been eating massive (along the lines of 5kg per day) amounts of food as per usual, but i have been losing weight (probably something to do with my starting to ride to school and back last thursday) but yeah, i can see my ribs again.. and thats not a good sign. so im trying to put on some more fat, cos i seriously need it, lol, not lacking for muscle though, probably why i dont weight like... 20kg, lol, considering how heavy muscle is, lol. ahhh well... hopefully when im done with my "anti-diet" (i am even consdiering eating fast food as an attempt to gain weight, but currently dont have to funds) so yeah, hopefully by tthe end of this i will have gained at least another 10kg. espesh cos considering i am riding now i am expecting to gain something like 2-3kg of pure leg-muscle, considering the proportions my legs where in the last period i rode and the proportions they are now, and that should bring me too a nbalancxe, cos currently its my leg muscles which are a bit behind they rest (lol, their lazy, lol) so yah.

Right.. wallet.. well, left it at hungry jacks (anti-diet) and realised it was missing an hour and a half later, came back, it was gone. so yah. luckly ID doesnt have your addy on it, so nobody could take my key and break in, but meh, so i got my new ID today ($20!!!!!!!!!!!!) and i have already cancelled my bank card and orders a new one (which wont arrive for 23 DAYS!!!!) and i bought new bus tikets, and i need to buy a new barr smith lib copy card, but i will just do that either next time i need it or next time i have money (i have.... $5 and change to last me until my bank card gets here) so yeah. (thats also the reason i dont have the fund to bring then anti-diet fight to the world of the fast food resteraunt) lol, so yah, i should go...

Well.. valantines... again.. again, no gf, no valantines, and i didnt even hook up with the chick i was itching to hook up with all night, well, i admit, i do feel sort of proud of my self-restraint, but... yah, damn. lol, ahh well... thats what valantines is about, lol... yeah, oh and marat? btw, i was just arguing with you for the sack of argument, in truth, i agree, its totally pointless, just as everything else is, nye, christman (religious, i know, but does that change anything?), b-days, anuversuries, easter, whatevr the hell yo uwant, all they are are escuses for paritess, and who needs excuses anyway? (i know, i know, now im agreeing with you, lol)

Hey! i think this is the longest any journal i have ever tried to keep has lasted... who knows maybe it will last longer... well, i just thought this would be a significant enough moment to note down.

I just broke up with kimi. yay. we're still great freinds and all and generally speaking it was quite a satisfactory break up. so yeah.

PS: Get in there marat! lol, jj, i know you said you weren't interested, lol, but who knows, a fall-back? from "katherine"? (oooooOOOoooo lol [singalong schoolkid tone]} lol.

Yay, today i met cameron (finally!!) lol, but kate kept giving me "go away so we can make out" vibes, so i left pretty quick, but he seemed pretty alright, if a bit of a bogan, lol, but i can live with that, the majority of my freinds are bogans, vandalists, stoners, hippies, nerds (oh sorry, geeks, not nerds, lol), goths, emo's, gansta's, even a couple of metro's, in fact the only social group i allow myself predjudice against is the group who think they are the "cool" people, they are just... pricks, every single one of them... but anywho, as you can see generaly i am free of social predjudice, and so i dont mind him being a bit of a bogan, although most likely its just a first impression and comletely incorrect, but meh, thats what i know for now, hopefully ill see more of him around, and get to know him better, lol, it seems like lately developing big-brother complex's is the latest thing for me, lol, and that kate (m, well, actually, while im on the topic, kate s. as well, lol) is my latest little sis, lol, hope she doesnt mind her adoption! lol, -.-

Well, up until yesterday, i just totally wasnt fussed about music, i simply didnt u nderstand what the big deal was for so many (only like... EVERYONE) people, and i was bored, and playing around with various p2p things, and trying to thik of things to download, so i remembered that Orr (my brother) said that i might like classical music, so i tried downloading some mozart, beethoven, bach, Hendel, and Tchaikovsky (sp?) and yeah, instantly discovered my love for music in classical music, i have to say that i prefered mozart to the rest, so i am now downloading his 25th 27th and 31st symphonies, and all 5 of his violin concerto's in all their many and various forms... yay... now i have to get an mp3 player... arg... lol, and i finally realise the irony of the final matrix playing "O Fortuna" (a mozart peice, for you inbeciles out there) in the final bits of the matrix, lol... hehehe, and suddenly the last matrix movie is now a comedy, lol.